Happy Thanks Giving Day

Today is Thanks Giving Day ya
actually I didn't care this day before
cos in China we never celebrated this day
But I really think this day is necessary

In our daily life
we don't have oppotunities to say "thank u" to others in serious attitude
cos sometimes we r say
and we don't know how to speak out
especially to people who close to us
We think we r too close to say "thank u"
cos we know each other a lot
we only wanna hide this appreciate in our heart

But why not?
Why don't we give ourselves and others the chances to speak out
tell them how much u need them
thanks for their supports and their understandings

Enen if we do know each other
we feel that lots of words r unnecessary
but sometimes show directly is really a good way to push the distance closer between 2 people
Or only one simple sentence
only one short message
as long as it comes from u
everyone must be sooo touched

I wanna thanks my parents
thanks for they gave me such a good living condition
thanks for they supportted my decision which I wanna go abroad
thanks for they gave me the freedom
letted me to do what I really like
Most important
I wanna thanks they gave me life
give me a happyness family
give me protection
and give me trust

And then
I wanna thanks my friends
I really can't leave my friends as I can't leave my parents
Once, we shared ups and downs
we cried together
got angry together
struggled together
and laugh together
No matter they stay with me
or leave far from me
we still hold this relationship
we still give the best wish to each other
the distance of heart to heart never changed

A lot of people I wanna to thanks
A lot of words I wanna to say
Just I love everyone around me
u raise me up and protect me as well
U r the magic in my life
my life bacome colourful cos of all of u
Thanks a lot and I love u....

Love----My belief

Mid-night now
I'm still full of energy
Even if I have class tmr morning
but I don't care ya
I mean I'm sure I can go to school on time (I'm a good student lol)

Sia and I talked about my "love story" again
He really wanna know who is that guy
I know he was curious
But I realllly couldn't tell him
I don't know why
He is my close friend
I can tell him anything but this thing
It wasn't cos I don't trust him
it was cos of myself, my problem

I had experience before
from "that man"
At the beginning
When I felt I like him
I told my closest friend first
then I told my other friends one by one without stopping
I found that I would tell many people as long as I started to tell one
In the end
most of my friends knew that but he didn't
When I came to Sydney for few months
One day I spoke out to him
but since then we became embarrassed
seldom talked online
we couldn't treat each other as friend anymore

Before that
I considered about should I tell him or not
There r two results
one is we can together, be couple
another one is from now on , be stranger
There were no possibility like "friend" at all
I still decided to take chance
and finally, we got strangers 
Although I loved him at that time
but what could I do?
Begged him??
or showed my tears to him??
I wasn't that kind of weak girl
that wasn't me

So now
I find a man I like again
actually I'm not sure yet
But I won't tell anyone
even Sia asked me 
How do I tell Sia or others??
Get the same result like last time??
Lose one more friend and have one more stranger??
I don't wanna take chance like last time anymore
and I gave this man hint already
no matter he could feel it or not
I have tried
I would rather to keep to be friends
pretend nothing happened than be strangers
U know
it was soooooo hurt when I knew "that man" and I have to be strangers forever
Thus now, nobody can hurt me again without my permission
I willing to keep this secret until he speak out first
or I can give up

I'm waiting for a brave man who can tell me he likes me
no matter who is he
At least he has that courage
I still believe someone is waiting for me
maybe now, maybe in the future
I still believe love
I still believe everything is possible as long as love is here

 I completed this article at 3:11am......
 Still not sleepy ya......
 Soooo boring
 then took a pic for fun
 See, my eyes can stared this big
 means I really couldn't feel any tired
 But I have to go to bed la
 Sia, I wish u won't read this artical ya
 Cos if u know after I said "C Ya" to u
 I didn't go to sleep and typed this artical until 3:20am
 Will u wanna kill me??
 Ok, now, I go to sleep......

Cos I have u to be with

Boring day ya
Cooked mashed potatoes for lunch
my first time to cooked this dish
Actually it was yummy
but I started to do it at 2pm
I was starving to death
so I cutted the beef at the same time I bited the bread
After completed the dish
I felt I was full already :((

In the afternoon
I chatted with Queenie online ya
She is my close friend in China
So pretty girl and nice ya
When I was at high school in China
we always rehearsed dancing together
Cos our high school didn't have dance teacher
we r good at dance
Obviously, we should be dance teachers for school and for free :((

At that time I had weak emotion
I mean I was easy to cry and easy to worry
But Queenie is quite a strong girl
Everytime when I started to cry
she always huged me in the first second
When I got angry for the rehearsal and shouted and throw my mobile phone
She was the person who picked up the thing and told me calm down
I really treat her as my elder sister
stand around me and support me
She spoiled me a lot at that time
Even now, she still worry about me for some things

I told her about a guy in Sydney today
I said I'm not sure whether I still like him or not
and he is reallllly stupid
I have gave the hint to him already
but he sitll keep quiet
She said she doesn't know either
just keep to be friend now
Yeah, I understand why Queenie told me like this
cos she knows my personality
I won't be active in this situation no matter I like him or not
But doesn't matter ya
I have Queenie lol
If one day no one marry me
I willing to be her dowry (hahaha.... I think it won't be happen)

Christmas is coming soon
in fact I have no feeling about Christmas ya
But I can back to China in this holiday
hmmmm..... looking forward this festival
Sooooo wish to meet Queenie, NaNa soon
and my primary school party
lots of beautiful things waiting for me ya......

When I think about these things
I feel really powerful and lively
Now.... study hard
Then.....enjoy my happiness life ya......

You guys are my motivity
all of u are the important parts in my life
I know some of u blessed me in China
and some of u strive with me in Sydney
I'm so appreciate I have u guys
cos of u
I'm not scared of anyting :))

New English Blog :D

I created a new blog today ya
even if I had a lot already
such as QQ and Sina
but all of them r Chinese blogs
For me it's ok
cos I'm Chinese and I can write and read Chinese
But for someone
like Sia (haha, see, I'm writing about u ya)
he can't read Chinese lol....


Moreover, I'm studying in Sydney now ya
How can I only have Chinese blogs??
So.......
Sia said I'm a bad girl cos I don't have English blog
But now......
I have one and I will update it very often
See, Mr Sia, I change to a good girl ya......
You happy?? :))


Actually keep a blog is sooo hard
maybe one year, one month, even one week
Cos sometimes although something happened in ur life
and u really wanna note it
but u only wanna note it in ur brain
too lazy to type on the blog
At least for me is like this


One of my Chinese blog kept for over 2 years
Now I still write something on it
but not as often as before
Maybe I become more lazy now
Today I read the articles which I wrote before
soooo touched
Though those characters
I found once I really did a lot of things
successful or failed
happy or sad
I can see how do I become more and more mature
how do I become more and more brave
I watch myself how to grow up
This is a really wonderful process


I'm extremely enjoy to note everything in my life
and glad to share with others
I think the growing experiences from everyone r different
everyone have their own stories
I like listen to stories when I was a kid
now, I grow up
thus I like to write stories
about myself and about the life
Perhaps I'm not that good writer
no beautiful sentences
no deep expression
but I'm heartful to my every word
and I will never change this attitude


Really
update a English article is quite tired ya
Cos my English is not that good
But I will try my best to keep updating ya......
So Mr Sia (ur turn again)
Please support my blog for a long period ya
Cos this is ur idea lol (of course I'd love to do as well, hahaha)


Ok, Ok
Time to have dinner ya
enjoy life and keep happy
Miss Melody, Fighting!!! :))
Love myself ya... !!

Thank you for your loving

You were chat with me again

 I couldn't describe the feeling at that time

We didn't contact each other for a long time

So happy that you still remember me

I read your QQzone yesterday
And I knew how hard you were when you made that decision

But I was so happy that you have made a good decision in the end

For your future

You'd better go to uni

Because you know even if you retake

No one can sure that the result will be better

Remember

Still a lot of our friends

They can't go to university because of their mark

You are the lucky one

At least you can go to the universty

No matter that uni good or not

Just try your best to do everything

Chat with you again

I felt so embarrassed

Perhaps because the special relationship between us before

What about you?

If you didn't feel good

We can stop to contact each other in the future

Now I saw the best ending for you already

You are in the uni

And I am stay in Australia

We have our different plans for the future

Forget everything about the past

We are still young

We still have lots of possibilities as well

I know there are something you can't forget

So do I

Thus just hold them in our heart forever

I remember that day

That warm hug

That lucky kiss

And those three words you plucked up your courage to told me

I felt so sweet at that time

Even if that was too late to spoke those words

Do you remember that song?

I said I don't allow anyone to sing that song to me again

I said "sorry" and "promise me, be happiness" with tears

You said you will

YYK

All of the things you did to me before

Thank you......