Saturday, May 21, 2011


I really have no idea what should I do now..
Many things are happening during my exam period
and all of these things are destorying my mood...


Especially YYK
Why you transfer me to your black list during this time?
Fine, this is your right to make this decision.
If you really hate me
just do it
actually I have no time to be sad because I'm in the exam..
It's ok for me to living without you...
I assumed everything is over already
because you updated your blog to notice all our friends that we don't have any relation anymore
still fine for me...
But...
Can you tell me why you came back and visited my blog again and again??
I thought we are over already
I thought finally I solved the problem between us and I can 100% focus on the exam..
Until I saw you appeared in my visitors history of the blog
I realised haven't done yet...


U know what?
Enough!!
U transfered me to your black list already
U deleted the follower of me from your blog already
U even told all the people we are stangers already..
I just keep quiet
looking at everything happen in front of me one by one...
Now you are appear in my life again
what extra do you want then??


You really think I gonna beg you to come back??
I can tell you with 100% sure
NO, I WON'T!!
You are the first person who move me to the black list
and I gonna remember this...
So just be a man, ok??
You did this decision already
I won't accept you anymore...
If you are a real man
just forget me since now
don't come back again and again...
Actually, I feel so strange
both of us moved each other to black list already
how could you still can enter my blog...
how did you do this??


Anyway..
don't be a coward
don't force me to look down upon you...

Monday, April 18, 2011



Hi...
What happened with us these days??
We said we r still friends, didn't we??
I gonna come back, very soon....
Now I konw we broke up at that time was a wise decision...
Distance relationship is sooo hard, we know that....

If 3 years after....
I still cannot find that man...
U still don't have GF...
I willing to come back
be ur GF again
and never break up.....

I know u r not him
no one can instead of him....
He was my earth
he was my everything....
He left me
means he almost destoried me...
I spent nearly 2 years to build myself up again....
He never talked to me anymore
maybe he wanna me to forget him...
But how?
U know that feeling....

I always imagine a scene
me, u and he we can have dinner together
like last time
the only time...
We enjoy the beer
we talked everything with out any embarrassment...
That was what I want...
But I don't will it happen again??

Actually, I have u guys in my life
enough for me...
U r my angels...
U two gave me the most beautiful period respectively...
I really really wanna back to that time
and I'm trying to make our relationships like that time..
But sooo hard, and maybe impossible
the feeling cannot be that pure anymore...
I hurt u, he hut me, u r teacher and student..
Sounds soooo ridiculous....
At least
please....
We don't be enemies to each other
we don't hate each other...
Cos the thing which made us start is love....
Even if we cannot continue this love
but it worth to be remembered...

I loved both of u...
I know u, too....
We r not the only love for each other...
If one day
I disappeared
Don't look for me...
Just pray for me...
If u can meet him again
please tell him:
Melody loved u...
She try to talk to u
she try to forgive all ur mistakes
she try to treat u as a normal friend
she try her best to do everything about u and her...
Can't u see that??
Dosen't matter u got married or not
she said she give u and ur wife the best wish...
What do u want then??
Really cannot talk to her again??

I can't believe that
this is our ending....
Give me one more chance
I willing to put my effort one more time...
The last time....
Then..
I will completely give up...






















See....
How beautiful we were.....
I miss that time...
I miss u....

Monday, March 28, 2011



Come on
Just tell me
u never loved me....
This is the only respond which I want now.....

Before I thought lose u is sth I could handle
now I know actually I cannot at all....
When I knew the secret which contain in the poem
I really could not control myself....
I don't know the exact feeling 
maybe happy
maybe upset
maybe touched......

This moment
I'd rather u tell me u were just kidding
that poem was just for a fun
Better than u keep silent
and avoid it purposely....

In fact
I knew u did love me long time before
I did as well...
Howvever, lots of challenges we had to face
we knew we cannot handle them very well....

But
I never changed
I loved u yesterday
I love u still
With no reason
With no doubt....

Once
We lied to each other
We hurt each other
We disapointed each other
The magical thing is —
a invisible line links us forever....

Wednesday, March 16, 2011



I never thought that we would be that close
I never thought that we could rely on each other
But once I obtained all of them
all the things which I never thought came true
Now we r untouchable for one another....


You said I am nearly perfect woman
 I know actually i'm not....
 I don't wanna be that perfect
 except in front of u....
 If I can meet u again
 I sitll willing to be perfect for u....

Monday, March 14, 2011




THE SHORTEST SPELL IN THE WORLD IS YOUR NAME..... 欧阳利民......

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Queenie, Cheer Up!!

Queenie
Don't fight with him ya...
I know u love him
so just be patient, ok??

U said u miss me
I do miss u as well
I still remember at that time
U had him and I had YYK
We always fought with them
and made us so so angry
then we went outside have milktea together
persuaded each other forgive them cos we love them...

Later me and YYK broke up
but u two r still together until now...
I'm sooo happy to see u and CZM r together for nearly 3 years..
So plz don't give up now
No matter how angry and sad u r
trust him and urself that u still love each other...

I know now I cannot have milktea with u outside
I cannot hear u complain abt him a lot with tears
Even I cannot do anything for u...
But u r my best friend
no matter where am I
I always give the best wishes to u....

Wait for me
I gonna go back on June
We can still go to bar
go to KTV
drink alcohol till we get drunk
Even u can live in my apartment again
we can chat for a whole night
if u r happy, I willing laugh with u
if u r sad, I willing cry with u as well...
Like that time
our beautiful high school period
u shared my ups and downs
Now, it's my turn....

If u feel bad
find me on QQ or on micro blog
I'm always here for u....
Just be happy
Don't always think of him if it will make u feel moody
think of me lol, haha.... :)
This is the advice which u gave me when I missed OY
hmm... it was really useful ya....