I really have no idea what should I do now..
Many things are happening during my exam period
and all of these things are destorying my mood...


Especially YYK
Why you transfer me to your black list during this time?
Fine, this is your right to make this decision.
If you really hate me
just do it
actually I have no time to be sad because I'm in the exam..
It's ok for me to living without you...
I assumed everything is over already
because you updated your blog to notice all our friends that we don't have any relation anymore
still fine for me...
But...
Can you tell me why you came back and visited my blog again and again??
I thought we are over already
I thought finally I solved the problem between us and I can 100% focus on the exam..
Until I saw you appeared in my visitors history of the blog
I realised haven't done yet...


U know what?
Enough!!
U transfered me to your black list already
U deleted the follower of me from your blog already
U even told all the people we are stangers already..
I just keep quiet
looking at everything happen in front of me one by one...
Now you are appear in my life again
what extra do you want then??


You really think I gonna beg you to come back??
I can tell you with 100% sure
NO, I WON'T!!
You are the first person who move me to the black list
and I gonna remember this...
So just be a man, ok??
You did this decision already
I won't accept you anymore...
If you are a real man
just forget me since now
don't come back again and again...
Actually, I feel so strange
both of us moved each other to black list already
how could you still can enter my blog...
how did you do this??


Anyway..
don't be a coward
don't force me to look down upon you...

Hi...
What happened with us these days??
We said we r still friends, didn't we??
I gonna come back, very soon....
Now I konw we broke up at that time was a wise decision...
Distance relationship is sooo hard, we know that....

If 3 years after....
I still cannot find that man...
U still don't have GF...
I willing to come back
be ur GF again
and never break up.....

I know u r not him
no one can instead of him....
He was my earth
he was my everything....
He left me
means he almost destoried me...
I spent nearly 2 years to build myself up again....
He never talked to me anymore
maybe he wanna me to forget him...
But how?
U know that feeling....

I always imagine a scene
me, u and he we can have dinner together
like last time
the only time...
We enjoy the beer
we talked everything with out any embarrassment...
That was what I want...
But I don't will it happen again??

Actually, I have u guys in my life
enough for me...
U r my angels...
U two gave me the most beautiful period respectively...
I really really wanna back to that time
and I'm trying to make our relationships like that time..
But sooo hard, and maybe impossible
the feeling cannot be that pure anymore...
I hurt u, he hut me, u r teacher and student..
Sounds soooo ridiculous....
At least
please....
We don't be enemies to each other
we don't hate each other...
Cos the thing which made us start is love....
Even if we cannot continue this love
but it worth to be remembered...

I loved both of u...
I know u, too....
We r not the only love for each other...
If one day
I disappeared
Don't look for me...
Just pray for me...
If u can meet him again
please tell him:
Melody loved u...
She try to talk to u
she try to forgive all ur mistakes
she try to treat u as a normal friend
she try her best to do everything about u and her...
Can't u see that??
Dosen't matter u got married or not
she said she give u and ur wife the best wish...
What do u want then??
Really cannot talk to her again??

I can't believe that
this is our ending....
Give me one more chance
I willing to put my effort one more time...
The last time....
Then..
I will completely give up...

See....
How beautiful we were.....
I miss that time...
I miss u....

Come on
Just tell me
u never loved me....
This is the only respond which I want now.....

Before I thought lose u is sth I could handle
now I know actually I cannot at all....
When I knew the secret which contain in the poem
I really could not control myself....
I don't know the exact feeling 
maybe happy
maybe upset
maybe touched......

This moment
I'd rather u tell me u were just kidding
that poem was just for a fun
Better than u keep silent
and avoid it purposely....

In fact
I knew u did love me long time before
I did as well...
Howvever, lots of challenges we had to face
we knew we cannot handle them very well....

But
I never changed
I loved u yesterday
I love u still
With no reason
With no doubt....

Once
We lied to each other
We hurt each other
We disapointed each other
The magical thing is —
a invisible line links us forever....